Wak.

I'm so sick of doing all this shit.

Having so much to say, but reaching this page and not knowing how to type it all out without being judged. Yes, I have a fear of judgemental people, even myself.

I hate myself, I really do.

All I want is to return to normality but you behave as though there's something wrong with that. So I straighten up and distance myself, but that only worsens things.

What do you want, really?

This is between you and me, and there's something serious and destructible going on here, but am I the only one feeling this way? Why am I trying to mend this when you can easily find someone else to make you smile?

Ahhhh?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?

Damn it, why does it have to be me? Why does it have to be you?

I want to shut up and die.
But before that, let's revise a little chemistry.
Life's so meaningless, shit it.

THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME TODAY.

AHHHH.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm so going to watch Whose Line Is It Anyway and then The Nanny to cheer myself up.

All I want is to sit comfortably by your side.
Why fling me away like I'm a used piece of tissue?

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Hey, friend, you know who you are.
I can't believe you will be stuck at home for the whole of next week. D:
I don't know what I'll do without you.