Moooday.

Today was an awful day.

Nothing happened, nothing.
But people asked me a few questions and I got pissed so easily.

They responded to my anger in an odd way.

Aly and Jas did so by being such a lovely pair. :)
They waited for me when I walked slowly away from the bunch. Aly asked the usual, "Why are you pissed?" Then they made me laugh, with just some silly antics.

Pong was there, asking, being such a comfort, knowing that something in me was struggling to come out and shout at the world. Thank you for not fearing my anger.

At that point, I really wondered if the people I love (actually, only two) only dare to be near me when I'm trying to brighten their day, when I am a harmless and pleasing creature, one void of all anger and anything unpleasant.

Suddenly I miss the ease we could show our anger back in the old days, when being angry didn't make you hated by the others, when it was simply, just an emotion.

I really missed MOSSP because we wouldn't really judge because of a few moments of "black face" or "scary silence" or shun from one another because she's-pissed-what-a-bitch.

I miss people who would sit there, without asking or saying, knowing silently.

Thank you boo for tolerating my nonsense - I realised you are such a kind and not-judgemental person today, especially since I was using so much more vulgarities before than now ;) Though I would never aim them at you and special people, and you knew that.

P.S. I suddenly think that my One is such a lovely person. Actually, perhaps we understood each other equally, just that to One, it was just a friendship.